The reply to the text...

Original post: Sunday 14th August 2011

I text back The Boy last night. Remember that he had said he wished he lived closer to Bournemouth? Well here are the replies...

Me: Heard 'Your beautiful' by Mr Blunt today, just not as good as a certain someone drunkenly singing it to me... xx


The Boy: What can I say? I have a gift ;P.. xx

Me:  Maybe, personally I think your talents lie elsewhere.
The Boy:  Well lets see what Napa has to say about that...xxx
Me: Your going to Napa? How very old school. Enjoy, I'm moving tomorrow. xxx



I don't think he will reply. He has no need to. He now knows that I am moving up north today and therefore will be 2 hours plus away from him. However, and this is something that has confused me, why did he text the other day? He knew then that we were far away, he said he wished he lived closer to Bournemouth. What was the point?


Sometimes I fantasise that one day we will be together. Then I know, the reality is that it will not happen. For me, he ticks all the boxes and he just does *it* for me. However there is one problem, and that is his age. He is simply not ready to be in a relationship like the one I want. This is why I think I react well to him sleeping with other women, seeing other girls, because I know that one day he will not want to do that and now he is 'getting it out of his system'.


I used to feel like I'm selling out if I do not wait for The Boy. Recently though, and it has taken me a long time to get this far, I have realised that right now, he is not good for me. I need someone to pick me up and cocoon me in a warmth of love.
This means I need to let The Boy go....