Talking to Al...

My best friend. We had a storming row a few months ago and were totally brutally horrible/honest with each other. Since then things have been awesome. She's one of the only people that is anywhere near close to understanding me, my head and how I feel about TB. 

Today we had a long catch up conversation. And I mentioned that i have been hearing a lot from The Boy and I will be seeing him this Friday for a flying visit as I'm going to Birmingham to a party on Saturday. She's happy that I'm coping with my feelings about him now. For a long time; especially after the abortion, I couldn't cope. Now, I can deal with the fact that we're not, and may not ever be together and still have the most wonderful time with him. If we were together we'd just fuck it up now anyway, so actually a part of me just likes having the good stuff from a relationship. And 'that stuff' makes me feel rather good 😉.... I'll let you know how it goes...