As the title says, the weekend was absolutely perfect for me. It was exactly how it should be/feel like when you're with someone and it is totally right. It's that feeling now I'm comforted by, because I know that it exists and I'm lucky enough to have experienced it, but also it's haunts me... I'll explain a little more about that in the next post. Anyway, a little timeline of events...
I got there and as I said in the previous post, was a little nervous about meeting his friends. I had absolutely no need to be; both of the guys are lovely and one of them is so much like TB (The Boy) it's ridiculous. Ended up watching the football and straight from the off TB was all over me, arm around me etc.
Eventually we were alone in his living room and he was talking about next year because he is currently applying around the country for his junior doctor training years. I asked him to come and be with me and do it at a hospital near me, (this is something that he suggested whilst drunk in July when I saw him). But I still can't believe I said it/ it came out. I've never asked him for anything before.
I don't know what I was expecting from asking him. I guess I just wanted to lay my cards on the table and ask for what I wanted which was for him to at least try 'us'. To be fair to him, he's said that he'll think about it. But, I don't think it is going to happen, the poor boy is so young, it's a lot to ask of him to move to a new place and I really understand that. I will never ask him again for anything. That's it.
After that we ended up going to his room; having some pretty good sex (I was so nervous as it had been over a year!) and then were playing around and he lay on top of me and I decided that he was acting like a walrus - I've never laughed so hard, the pair of us were just there, lying in bed, and laughing so much.. He'd also exclaimed rather loudly that he was not a walrus and due to that his housemates heard and so they continued 'I'm the walrus' banter all weekend. Brilliant 😃.
Cooked dinner for him and the guys and he was just so bloody wonderful, helping out, tidying (he's such a mess usually) and coming up behind me to give me hugs and kisses. Just basically everything that has been missing from a certain recent relationship.
After dinner we went out, and went to a house party where I knew no one and they were all medics like him. And yes there were a fair number of girls there that in the past he has slept with. To be fair to me, I wasn't bothered at all. They're all girls that have never lasted more than one night and they were all lovely and welcoming to me. He left me to talk to people and I didn't even notice. Mainly because I love social gatherings but also because he'd introduced me to everyone which is something so alien to me. I went to find him in the kitchen (such a surprise) and he was like 'I left you, I'm sorry' and I just laughed because it was ludicrous! Anyway, seems that whilst I was gone talking, the girls had asked about what 'our' status was. He'd bloody told them that it was complicated and I'd only gone and said that we were friends.... Whoops!
Following that bombshell we were getting ready to head into town and i was putting on my very sexy but incredibly-impossible-to-get-on stiletto sandals and he informs me that 'when you have my baby, don't worry I'll make sure that I sew you up nice and tight afterwards'. I just looked at him and laughed... And then said, currently we are not having kids, secondly if I were then you wouldn't be down that end sewing me up....! It's moments like that when I really think I bloody love him. Totally inappropriate, hilarious but actually an amazing thing to say with a lot of love in it.
We then went out in town and he was all over me in front of everyone who he'd said 'its complicated' to before. Completely like a puppy dog and just wonderful because I literally knew no one. There were helium balloons on our table and as boys will be boys, they all decided to sing 'bohemian rhapsody' with helium in their lungs (my song request!). Interestingly it was TB and Wel's boyfriend (the girl that TB was with for like a month three years ago) who were doing it. He's cool and again, a lot like TB. After the helium, one of his housemates took a photo of me and TB. It's amazing, we look so bloody happy and we were. Then we were just talking and he got the helium again and I said 'don't you dare tell me you love me again with helium in your mouth'. So what did he do? 'I love you'... Oh...
Ended up dancing and having an absolute laugh with everyone and then leaving, going home and having hard, hard sex... TB was pretty drunk by this point, so it really was frigging hard and powerful which I love... Ahhhhh. Attempted to do the dirty, however, didn't quite get in; maybe due to lubrication... Always next time 😉.
I was freezing cold during the night because TB hates being warm and so has to sleep with the window open whatever the season. Got one of his tees and socks during the night and put them on. Next time I've told him I'm bringing a blanket which apparently is what his mum does! We ended up going to Tesco for breakfast and got goodies to make eggy bread. Amazing, yummy food. Walked around Tesco with his arm around me and carried the bags after. Like it's supposed to be...
Sunday day after eating, we basically just loved each other all day. I've never laughed so much and talked about so much different stuff. And had the most amazing, connective sex with someone... It was life changing for me, and I mean that. Whatever happens, I'll always remember how I felt with him that weekend and how that feeling is what I need to make me truly happy.
We discussed the five things that a guy needs (sex; food; sleep; beer; laughter/talking) and then I asked what I needed, he said: 'Passion, someone that let's you be yourself/doesn't restrict you' and I agreed and said 'What else? What do we do a lot of' and he said 'laugh'... Top 3 things for me. Always will be.
Due to tiredness during the afternoon, he'd said something silly about how 'I'd do' that got me a little emotional and for the second time ever (in nearly 4 years), I silently cried. He was brilliant, spoke about everything and he said he was scared and he wishes the circumstances allowed us to now be together and he doesn't expect me to wait a year when they only might change. He's absolutely right and but I wish it wasn't so bittersweet....
After my emotional 'breakdown' which lasted about 15 mins before he had me smiling again, we had lots of sex, possibly the best ever, and more laughter with a whale/walrus combo joke under the sheets (I was the whale!)...
He then showed me this Vine clip of 'Kiss like a doggie' which had me in stitches... Then he kissed me like that... So bloody funny. Crying with laughter because he's so ridiculous and I love it!
I also told him about the fittest teacher at my new school that I go to the gym with. All the girls love him. And TB was a little jealous I think because he gave me two love bites on my neck so Mr Maths would see them when I was in school the next day. Amused me no end! I don't get jealous at all about other girls because they never last long, however someone got a little green...
We then watched the 'Up' intro because it's amazing and he wanted to show me it. I want to be like that old couple with someone, even him. We'd be amazing at 70 I think, still laughing and being ridiculous... That's all I bloody want with The One..
I drove him to squash and that was it. My perfect weekend was over...
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