The can't-sleep-too-excited insomnia

So it's 7.15am on a Saturday morning and I didn't go to sleep until after midnight. Way too hyped up about seeing The Boy in a matter of hours. 

M is away on his stag do (the one that meant he didn't have the money to go away with me this summer-priorities) and I am heading slightly south to see The Boy.

I realised last night that it is only a 90 min drive. Told him and he was surprised to. The plan is to chill out together today, I'm making enchiladas tonight for him and his housemates and then going out with even more of his friends to celebrate a birthday. These are all his friends from his course, I know none of them. The ones that I know are his friends from before but they graduated last year as his course is five years not three. Those are the friends that love me. The ones today I'm not even sure know a) that much about me even though I've been around for 3+ years and b) haven't spoken to me before. I bit nervous but I'm going to completely win them over by being my usual lovely, social able self. 

Fun times! Will let you know how it goes! 

Annoyed...

I'm a little irritated. I haven't heard from The Boy since Friday night. Usually he's all over the PM on social networking but he read my one message last night and hasn't bothered to reply. 

It's times like this when I actually don't think that I can wait around for him to behave like he cares about me. It's irritating and immature. He's (like M) very self centred and selfish (aren't all boys?!) and I'm not sure how much I can deal with.

He's probably busy, but then, drop me a message, that's all it takes, to let me know you're thinking about me. This for me, is why it wouldn't work at the moment with him, I knew regardless of what he said last time we were together, he hasn't fully changed. He wants me, but doesn't know how to act to make that happen.

 It's not enough for him to tell me that I'm the One, I need him to show me. Especially when I'm the one always going to see him etc (I'm the one with a car/money). Actually really annoyed...

My mood...

It always completely takes me by surprise that my mind and happiness is dependent on someone elses mind. For example if someone texts you/ messages  you then your day is automatically better. It really upsets me when I don't hear from The Boy for more than a day.... And M. Yet each of them serve a different purpose... Even my friends, if I don't hear from them then I'm upset! Very odd... My challenge as I get older is to take responsibility for what I can control; my actions and thoughts and to care less about what others do...